You can say I'm an avantgarde composer
Because there aren't any notes in any single one of my notebooks
And as soon as I find a way to play these reams of sheet music
With an instrument that is new and uses a scale of crossed out words

Regret and Embarassment
Instead of guitar chords.
I'm sure it's just a matter then, of seconds before I'm rich on MTV
Pack the place with kids to sing my songs and bite their tongues along with me

This was supposed to be a realse
And now It's quite easily the most stressful piece of my existance
My first tour overseas I was scared shitless,
The second trip I only felt an overpowering indifference
Now my third is imminent and I just feel sick

I'm the guy in the doctor's office;
"Doctor it hurts when I do this."
"You weigh less than your own shadow,"
"I was barely a stick to start with."
Now I'm outdone by the sum of all the splinters I've discarded

And none of my friends know who I am.
It's our arrangement.
I kept Cex at arms length to try and keep the real Rjyan safe.

For every dodgeball thrown,
Every night with cameras rolling,
There's bright lines drawn around all the shit we leave unspoken.

My confessions could fill stadiums
But still my heart's burried under Baltimore
And I think I've forgotten where

I could tear up the city trying to find it,
But knowing myself I'd just probably line the cavity with straw and disappear