Eminem Speaks - Juice WRLD

[Eminem:]
I think once I took my first Vicodin, it was just like, this feeling of "Ahh"
You know, like everything was not only mellow, but didn't feel any pain
It just didn't-, it just kind of numbed things
I don't know at what point exactly it started to be a problem
I just remember likin' it more and more
People tried to tell me that I had a problem
I would say, "Get that f_ckin' person out of here, I can't believe they said that sh_t to me, they know nothin' about my f_ckin' life, are they out of their f_ckin' mind?"
I'm not out there shootin' heroin, I'm not out there f_ckin', you know, puttin' coke up my nose, I'm not smokin' crack
You're struggling with the argument of "Do you have a problem, or do you not have a problem? Can you control it, or can you not?"
And I literally thought I could control it
You're taking things that people are giving you that, you don't even know what the f_ck they are
They look like a pill, and they look- they're shaped like something that you take, so you take it, you know?
Xanax, Valium, tomato-tomato
You know what I mean? It's th-the same thing, it's all in the same family, f_ck it, take it
Had I had got to the hospital about two hours later, I would've died
My organs were shutting down, my liver, kidneys, everything
They were gonna have to put me on dialysis, they didn't think I was gonna make it
My bottom was gonna be death, within a month, I had relapsed
And shot right back up to the same amount of pills that I was taking
I remember just walking around my house and thinking every single day, like, "I'm gonna f_cking die", like, I'm-I'm looking at my kids, and I need to be here for this
Coming off of everything, I literally was up twenty-four hours a day for three weeks straight
And I mean not sleeping, not even nodding off for a f_cking minute
Like, I was literally just up, like, looking at the TV
I had to regain motor skills, I had to regain talking skills
It's been a-a learning process, like, it's been, I'm growing
I just couldn't believe that anybody could ever be naturally happy, or naturally function, or be just enjoying life in general, without being on something
So, I would say that t-to anybody that i-it does get better, you know? It just- it does

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